This morning I woke up with a strange sense of unease. There were all kinds of doubts in my mind about my ascension process, and about the ascension process in general. Wouldn't all this stuff from the ascend press site and all the things I have written on this site, be some kind of foolish fairy tale? Wasn't I making stupid choices in my life, in order to make more room for my ascension process, which could be one of the most clever systems of disinformation?
Somehow I didn't feel as good as I normally do when I wake up. Alright, as you can read in the article on the Mahatma Blues something could have happened in connection with the Mahatma planes, but ever since I ended the ancestral agreements to give to these planes, I have hardly had any problems with it. So I went to my table where I took my button-on-a-thread Fred (see Turtle 15: The Birth of Fred), and I checked to see if anything was wrong.
Nothing seemed to be wrong. In fact, everything looked so right that I started to doubt the answers. Normally there is always something that has gone into at least some distortion, especially after a night's sleep. All my chakra's were on the same 90%-level. There were no personality entities in my system, no curses, no stolen grid work, no karmic encounters or stolen light bodies. That was weird since it didn't match my state of mind nor the state of my body.
The thoughts filled with ascension doubt, these strange pendulum answers and my feeling of unease merged and led to the possibility that I was being tricked by some ascension blocker, some entity that was trying to stop me from ascending any further. Could this have happened? I had connected to my source and still got those rather repetitive answers that said that everything was just fine. Then I decided to ask the consciousness of Earth what had happened and who had given all those answers before, and the pendulum swung to the False Tao.
Bingo! I thought. I asked Earth if perhaps my Source had been shattered, and I got a big 'yes' for an answer. I immediately decided to recast my present Source (even though I had really gotten to like this Source) to the aurora of the Earth, and ask for a replacement that would be completely intact and ready for the job of assisting me in my ascension process. Within a few seconds this Source would have arrived and I continued with the removal of the False Tao from my system.
Then I asked if there were any personality entities causing the recent blurring and ascension doubts and yes, there were four of them. I recast them to the center of the Earth and I reconnected to my fresh Source to ask how my chakra's were really doing. Amazingly they were all exactly at 40% of their capacity. So, this False Tao acted as if he was my Source, bended my thoughts into doubts about my process and he stole a lot of chakra-information and chi from me on top of that.
As soon as I started to return all the stolen grid work and I intended my chakra's to spin for the full 100% my chest expanded, my breath returned and my mind cleared. There was no single doubt left in my mind about this process I'm going through and I was glad to be able to determine who was the cause of all this manipulation. This entity that I had given the name False Tao because Mila used that name, must have been in need for information and chi, to want to take from my system by fooling me in this fashion.
While I was giving way to a few other cars this afternoon, I wondered if anyone would believe me if I said that I had uncovered and chased out the False Tao after it shattered my Source and manipulated my thoughts and my pendulum results. I grinned and decided that it would be better to remain silent about it. Perhaps this reality will surface someday in the not too distant future. For now, I allow myself to enjoy this moment, for without any doubt, another attempt to fool me will be launched soon.
Gibbon,
September 2005.