By Monique Spangenberg, May 9, 2005
A couple of years ago, long before I was introduced to the SSOA materials, I experienced a personal crisis. This was when my ancestors began to make their presence felt and made me realize that it was time to retrieve my power. I felt torn apart. On the one hand I began to sense the enormous power that was mine and would be available to me as a birthright, if only I would be ready to reclaim it. On the other hand I felt the presence of those in my ancestry who had messed up in their lifetime, and parts of me that had messed up in this lifetime.
So I had to confront myself with some of my deepest fears. These included the fear to see, the fear to know, and the fear of taking full responsibility not only for my personal actions in this lifetime, but also for all actions for all of my ancestors. The idea that this karma was not mine or that there was anything unfair to this never even occurred to me. I knew that both the karma and the power were mine alright.
Many lineages that had misused power in various ways lined up in front of me. Some had "sold their souls", had bargained with the dark. Others had simply given their power away and agreed to become living batteries to supply others with energy. Those who had power misused it; others gave their power away so others could misuse it.
I then experienced what is known as catharsis. To put it dramatically, in that moment I fully understood, on a biological level, that if I would not reclaim my power it would continue to be misused, and I would simply die. I had to overcome my fear of power. Power is not an ugly word, no matter how many ancestors misused it or gave it away for how long! This is when I began to anchor and embody authentic power. It was a very emotional experience that I would have described differently at the time. I now realize that although everyone has his own story, every ascending human experiences a crisis of this nature at some or several junctures on his ascension path.