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In the exploring-article I Would Prefer Not To I try to work out one of the reasons why higher-vibrational consciousness might prefer not to look at any dark counterparts. The main idea from that page is that there might be a fear that when light and dark counterparts meet, they might cancel each other out and be transformed into something new and more balanced, leaving the individual parts behind.
This page wants to touch upon another reason why consciousness with a 'higher' vibration might not feel like getting themselves into contact with any dark counterparts. This reason is based upon a fear of contamination.
By spending time and attention on material that is uncomfortable or unpleasant you might just lose the vibration you are holding. You might get infected with lower or electrical thought forms that might pull you down and cause a sincere drop in vibration. You might have heard of all those stories of higher vibrational beings that irretrievably fell in vibration when they got into closer contact with humanity.
If we take a look at the human history on Earth, at least as it has been reconstructed so far by the SSoA and a few others, we get a story of fall after fall of consciousness. Each fall leading to a loss of vibration, to less and less DNA-segments to work with. It is therefore not strange that any evolving consciousness would want to prevent another fall from occurring.
A few nights ago I dreamt of myself being in all kinds of situations in which I was desiring to be accepted within a group, in another dream I was feeling insecure and clumsy. When I woke up I wondered what to do with this. Perhaps it was some parallel life that had entered my awareness or an electrical phantasy reality that I needed to disconnect from?
Because I'm currently in the process of questioning more and more thought forms within the SSoA-perspective I feel the tendency to carry this a bit too far, questioning everything, thereby losing sight of the many beautiful keys of wisdom that the articles are filled with. I could use a few tones of creation like Non-conditional Love (Unifying Praise-Invalidation) or Oneness (Me/Separate- You/Together) to deal with these themes, but even this has become to feel like a trick these days.
If it weren't for the electrical responsibility wave from february-march I would have opted for a disconnection, or in other words a dumping technique. It is so much nicer to remain in a way of living in which you feel strong, harmonious and above all ascending into higher awareness. Why risk all this by looking at behavior that I would consider weak or clumsy? That doesn't fit the image of an ascending initiate, does it?
It was during a walk outside that I tried to contact those parts in that dream and it was after opening to them that I felt their joy. It really felt as if they were jumping from their seats after a goal was scored during a football match. It made me realize that there are probably numerous soul fragments that are stuck somewhere in my past still dealing with themes that were important back then, but don't seem important today. Somehow I haven't consciously looked those themes in the eye, thereby holding on to the charge within these unconscious realms.
I also felt the fear that if I would focus on these 'weak' thoughts I would get infected by them and I just might lose all that I have accomplished so far, and believe me, I haven't felt better in my life because of this ascension process. The thought: everything that you focus on will increase in strength is behind this. If you focus on a depressive episode in your life, you could easily become depressed again. If you think about happy times, or if you 'think positively' you are bound to feel better.
These constructions make it hard to embrace those soul aspects, or soul fragments that are parts of ones history or ancestry. I have now intended to have trust in my process and my ability to get back to a more harmonious and harmless mode of being even when I invest energy and attention in these unpleasant and stuck soul fragments. Perhaps it is nothing more than a variant of creating and recovering skisms. In my present state of mind it feels like opening up to angular, polarity thought form in stead of attempting to remove it.
I hope that this is the start of encountering more and more extreme electrical thought form within me and my ancestry in order to deal with it and transmute it. Let's just hope that this works better than sending it back to some other place and that I won't get 'electrically contaminated'.
Gibbon,
March 2006
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