Ascending human diary, May 2, 2007
The SSOA teachings say that the personality is made up of fractured consciousness, entities that feel 'at home' in lower frequency bands. They are related to fallen planes of reality that Mila calls the Kumaras; they are not originally from this creation. Students are not advised to identify with these entities or integrate them as their own shadow. You are to call upon your ancestors and soul for advice and inner guidance to release your karma for becoming involved with them, to forgive, and thus ascend beyond the personality.
The personality can be described as the many excuses and reasons why the real you cannot manifest itself. We do not live our own lives and think our own thoughts. We think we do but we don't, until we begin to ascend and reclaim our power of manifestation. The personality is a compound of the many distorted thought form patterns that prevent you from connecting to your higher self.
Mila wrote that she had completely ascended beyond the personality. But during the last intensive I attended, when her focus was on clothes, spas, jewelry, dying your hair, shaving your arms - I realized she was definitely speaking from personality or fallen ancestral consciousness. When she channeled higher frequencies of her being, her personality would be out of sight. She was demonstrating the split in consciousness that she writes about so often in her own articles!
What does that tell us? Can the consciousness of a human being that is split into separate fields of awareness, manifestation and states of mind effectively study itself, know itself, and evolve or ascend itself?
The reason for the split appears to be genetic in nature. Genetic manipulations occurred to the human race not once but several times. They changed our human nature. As a result we now allow our lives to be run from the fractured personality. Our ancestors were very confused by the conflicting streams of consciousness and information that they experienced as compound beings. They tried to stop and heal the corruption that invaded their systems but found they could not. Eventually we forgot much if not all about our human agenda in alignment with our true spiritual nature.
This is from Carlos Castaneda, The Active Side of Infinity:
"Every one of us human beings has two minds. One is totally ours, and it is like a faint voice that always brings us order, directness, purpose. The other mind is a foreign installation. It brings us conflict, self-assertion, doubts, hopelessness.""In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver - stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators gave us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predator's mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now."
When I left the SSOA, it was the reality of this foreign installation that Mila would not acknowledge, that made my go my separate way. I saw that the false ascension patterning was not an individual or personal matter but a group pattern, or even one that pertains to being human in this day and age. Pointing out individuals and their false ascension patterns is not going to solve the issue, no matter how completely you forgive them. Actually, forgiveness implies you have something to forgive and it instantly locks you into polarity thinking. This happened to our ancestors too, who remember the treason and corruption that seemed to attack them through the very heart of who they were. In the end they felt they could not trust anyone, not even themselves.
It may have been genetic manipulations that resulted in our connection to a foreign mind and pirate consciousness. That may have been the way karma was deflected and became part of our DNA and 'inheritance': through genetic manipulations. Our own DNA was melded together with the foreign DNA. So we have one mind that consumes, preys on nature and energy sources outside of self and has no trouble doing that at all; and another mind, our own, that has the potential to connect to higher identity levels of self and source, with a clear responsibility towards our environment, energy fields, nature and conscious manifestation.
Whatever the original cause, we still have a choice. Once you realize your condition you can stop losing yourself and worrying about the phantom choices that the foreign mind through the fractured personality occupies itself with. All those worries and questions and comments and doubts are not part of your real agenda and the real you. Phantom choices! Whether or not you are responsible for this predicament, you always have the right and the obligation to make sure your power of manifestation is used to create the best possible outcomes in alignment with your spiritual agenda. Pirates have no spiritual agenda. They have plans for invasions.
What we call Ego is the part of our consciousness that has been run or guided by the personality. The pirate mind runs our life through our fractured personality and distorts our 3D consciousness into an Ego by means of inflation or deflation. But we need this consciousness stationed in this third dimension or density level to balance itself and run our lives here. Much or most of it is currently trapped and abused to invert our original intentions. As we retrieve that consciousness, all of it, bit by bit, we begin to remember the purpose of our lives on this plane of reality.
If you try to ascend beyond your ego, or fight it, destroy it or deflate it, you fail to win back your own consciousness stationed here for the purpose of ascension. It is now involved in those phantom agendas and puppeted from higher dimensions. Each of us needs to reclaim our consciousness absorbed and entangled in those pirate schemes and plans for a phantom existence, trapped in the phantom System. This is an inner battle that is mirrored to us from without.
Mila claims she ascended beyond the personality, but such a claim has no value if it is maintained from another, higher plane of existence. For it is Karen who has to ascend beyond the personality on this physical plane, while carrying full responsibility for her manifestations on this density level, but she disappeared. Karen does not merge with her own higher self; she did not retrieve her physical plane power to run her life here in this dimension in alignment with her higher self. That makes you wonder who Mila is. Perhaps Karen has a soul contract that allows Mila to take over her life and run it. Such pre-birth hosting contracts do exist. But it could also be a body snatch.
Higher identity parts may be known under other names on their planes of existence, but if they have a true spiritual agenda they certainly do not want us to dump our names, power and responsibility here and 'lose' ourselves as a third dimensional being. On the contrary! Humility has nothing whatsoever to do with kneeling before a divinity outside or inside of self. Once you begin to fathom the vastness of who you are, you experience the urge to find and hold your 3D position in alignment with the reason you were born, your spiritual agenda, even if you have a hard time remembering any or all of it. Then it becomes a whole lot easier to stop identifying with the chattering personality and the pirate consciousness.
In summary, we as humans allowed our consciousness on this physical plane to be trapped and distorted into an Ego totally run by the fractured personality. We have two minds. The mind that is a foreign installation is programmed to follow a parasitic hive mind agenda. It strives to make you give up your personal power and responsibility. It seduces you into believing that your true power is in becoming part of that hive mind, that poses as 'higher dimensional intelligence', ascended masters or angels. If you believe you own all the mistakes your ancestors made who were also seduced by this viral influence, you fall into the karma trap. If you are convinced that your Ego is a bad thing that must be defeated or totally deflated, you will continue to give away all the physical plane power and responsibility that you were given from your own Source to run and direct your life on this identity level of perception of yourself. This is how your own power can and will continue to be used against you, until you say: no more.