Hi Gibbon,
I found your May and June articles quite stimulating. I have not been as faithful to the reading of the SsoA materials of late, finding that I am inclined to practice sovereignty and honor of self, until I hit a blank wall.
And, today I feel ‘emptiness’ – actually it’s been 4 days already. By emptiness I mean the absence of dreams of a future, the excitement of activity - which is the motivation to act – and loving feelings. I know I am not lethargic nor apathetic, but that is how I feel. I find myself questioning once again, existence, life, and consciousness – that the beliefs I have held on just a few days back no longer matter. Like a shedding off of some sort.
Before that, I was struck by your sharing on
the Monroe Bands. This is the first time I’ve ever heard of that. Of course, I immediately checked it out in the internet. Not much information on the Monroe official site, though. What struck me about your article are the bands of belief – where people who are believers of one thing or another would end up in. Then I identify with your question whether you, as a subscriber to the SsoA would also belong in those bands.
Immediately after reading that, is the awareness of how I cling to beliefs as if my life depended on it. When I would use the analogy of beliefs as steps in going up (higher awareness), it was pointed out to me that the way I’ve been clinging to beliefs is more of like the use of a rope in going up. So just imagine me clinging to it for dear life (there is fear!), that movement upwards can indeed be very slow. Then, the question, why is it so? Could I really do without clinging to
beliefs? Is that what freedom finally means?
Which leads me to your next statement that thought-forms are more important than karma.
I’ve come to the conclusion that both and all other information need to be considered if one wants to (try to) grasp the whole picture. I feel that one thing cannot be left unattended. The way I understand it in my life in relation to SSoA information, is that clearing karma is attending to what had happened in the past (which I do not remember) that are reverberating in the other planes, finding resolution. The movement of this karma is manifestation in the present. Thought-forms, on the other hand, is occurring right now in the present moment. The twist of course is, karma might just be the reason behind our holding certain thought-forms. So the living out of thought-forms in
this present reality could actually be a means of balancing / karmic payment. When balance is achieved, a thought-form has served its purpose and is ready to be discarded.
The knowledge of karma helps me understand why things happen the way they do. The fact that I don’t remember past lives can mean that I don’t need to… overload the brain with memories… that thought-forms already give me an inkling what it is I need to release and/or integrate. (Hey, maybe based on current ‘findings’ of embracing instead of releasing, indeed, the more appropriate act is, to integrate. As in, ‘I intend to (forgive and) integrate…’ rather than ‘I intend to release…’).
The ‘emptiness’ I’ve been feeling tells me that I am not my dreams, nor my beliefs, nor my thought-forms… that I have a say in what I would like to ‘take on’. But without higher
information or seeing, I don’t know what to do about this opportunity, if indeed, it is an opportunity. Before I’d call this ‘emptiness’ of feeling, ‘depression’, but now it’s just that, an emptiness.
Maybe during these times what I need to do is to consciously call on soul and ‘download’ the next set of information. The danger with this ‘emptiness’ is that even ascension doesn’t seem to make sense, nor is it of any importance. Nothing matters when this ‘emptiness’ strikes. It’s probably like being electrocuted… an immobilization happens because of shock.
If you have an idea or resonating thoughts on this matter, I’d appreciate it if you could share them.
As for visiting astral planes to ‘rescue’ stuck ancestors or fragments of self in any astral plane, I have a
thought that maybe this rescuing gets done without the dangers of being vampirized, by being aware and conscious of what’s being presented to us in this present reality, then, understand (whatever issue it is), forgive, integrate and move on, knowing that in completion, an ancestor/fragment of self has been freed!
I’ve been syncopating my movement to the next ‘level’ with the new moon. It was the new moon today at 12:06am. I did my ritual of ‘releasing’ (next month I’m going to try the formula, ‘understand, forgive and integrate’) last Saturday evening and am in awareness (as best as I can) of the issues that would be uncovered in the coming days. It’s like being in a new adventure every month. Then the question, why am I engaging in such adventures? Why don’t I just live ‘normally’ as other people seem to do – day in, day out – being excited about activities and happenings around them, ie. latest in
fashion, movies, movie stars, music, sports, etc. and get to accomplish something tangible? J
Well, that’s about it for now. Thank you for ‘listening’. It’s been a good airing out. Please feel free to comment. Once again, thank you for your sharing and your site. Curiously, have you earned your 500Euro? J
~Flow