Although the ascension process is a process that I would recommend to everyone who is interested, I need to say that there are some 'setbacks'. One of these setbacks is that I don't go to the cinema as much as I used to. I simply don't enjoy it as much as I used to. Ascension for me doesn't mean that I hardly go to the cinema because Mila says that it could harm your system and that it could even activate some karma that might not need to be activated. Ascension for me means that I, myself experience that watching TV and going to the movies stirs up all kinds of thought forms and emotions that don't seem to vibrate well with my current 'vibration'.
I would hardly call this a setback however, because it creates more time for other matters that I have learned to enjoy more, like writing, walking and just sitting while enjoying my breath and thoughts.
Last week I noticed that something has changed as far as my ability to deal with stress is concerned. Before I started with my process I could stand some stress relatively easy, although I never really enjoyed it much as some people say they do. But now it seems that I can hardly stand anything. I can really get upset by the most simple things. If I need my wallet or some important paper and I cannot find it I can get completely nervous, even leading to moments when I can't think straight anymore. This is quite weird for me.
I function maximally when there hardly any stimuli from the outside world. Perhaps everybody would function better without many stimuli from outside, but it seems to go into extremes these days. Perhaps I cannot stand 'electrical' thought forms as well as I used to. Fortunately I am not as non-physical as is Mila (see excerpt below) and I don't intend to ascend into such a mode of living. For now I prefer to keep up my work as a full-time Dad with my 1-year-old daughter and a an occasional 2-day a week job together with my tasks as a husband within this world.
In order to survive I need to learn to deal with 'electrical' thought forms in a way that stops me from freaking out too easily. I think that the best way to work this out is to make decisions fast and do the necessary things without postponing anything. Furthermore I guess I am going to write down things that need to be done on a piece of paper, which leaves more room for ascension-related thoughts in my head. I simply 'dump' them somewhere outside of my system.
I sometimes wonder how I would manage working for five days a week in some company: I guess that I would lose my mind first and then I would find a new balance which would probably mean an end to my ascension process altogether.
Another thing that has changed has got to do with the way I deal with people in general these days. Especially when I am around my family (parents, siblings) I am very alert to all the electricity that flies through the room: I have become aware that there truly is a lot of unconscious harm being perpetrated by my family. Harm that I was unable to discern before. I cannot blame them however, for they don't seem to be aware of what they might be doing and I don't want to change them. I just need to be more on my guard when I am around them.
Here's an excerpt from Healing the Inner Family (2004):
Oa too has admired Mila for a long time and understands her nature. So often Mila is so far out into the nonphysical that she can barely find her way through their third dimensional home without getting lost. This is metaphorical, but Oa understands this and picks up after Mila, taking care of the third dimensional aspects of life such as doing the laundry, shopping, cooking, paying the rent, making the deposits, putting gas in the car and making reservations for their travels. Sometimes Mila also will cook, clean and shop when Oa is busy with the next recording they are making. In so doing all remains in balance and all things necessary to third dimensional existence get done. Mila and Oa no longer compete over who does what, as it really doesn’t matter as long as one enjoys the part of the dance that one contributes unto the whole. They each do what they enjoy and do best from Earth’s point of view, and so their life is a relatively smooth dance from day to week to month to year.
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