Sometimes I can get rather tired of trying to explain again and again what the ascension process (or experiment) is about. I have already decided in an early stage not to talk about it to just every person that walks by. In the past I used to be quite argumentative about 'spiritual' matters, but that was during the times when I thought it was possible to influence people into thinking differently. That was during the times when I thought I could help people get back to their soul's path, or something like that.
The last couple of weeks made me realize that I'd better stop that approach once and for all. Some people just don't get anything of this ascension process, no matter what you try to say. That is just fine and everybody dances their own dance, so to speak. Now that my belly is increasing and I feel the need to actually use the belly-potential in breathing it needs to protrude most of the time. There is something in me that wants to explain to the people around me that this is really not some kind of lazy beer belly, but a 'buddha-belly' which is the result of this process called ascension.
Members of my family are not hesitant in calling the SSoA a sect which has brainwashed me into believing the weirdest things. If I hadn't gone to the university they would have called me insane immediately, but there is still something lingering of that 'clever guy' who was doing a good job at school. It is a pity to notice that some family members listen but are in fact only trying to convince me of the stupidity of my present worldview.
Then you have those friends who make jokes about certain affairs. In my Dutch Project I have listed more than 30 'research-questions' that deal with issues that would unfold during this and the next decade if ascension was truly something real. The questions have a wide scope and this leads to a friend mailing me: "Say, wouldn't be an idea for a research question to say that the rising number of family killings in a Dutch town called Zoetermeer this year is the result of the ascension process?". Well, it might be a nice joke, but I still tend to respond and try to explain the true intent of these research questions.
Then there are other people who think of me as someone selfish because I work on my ascension process instead of working 40 hours a week. Others say that I am fleeing from reality by partaking in this process.
These matters can drain quite some energy away from my system, so I intend to end these kind of communications. Even though I would love to share my experiences and thoughts during this ascension process I need to accept that I can share them with only a small number of people. Most of the things can only be told if I first explain the context which takes quite some time and many misunderstandings to become clear.
Yes, the process of ascension is indeed a wonderful experience, but it would have been nice if it were easier to share with the people around you.
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