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INTRODUCTION
When I get severely annoyed by someone (see Karma Arrogance) it means that there is something that needs attention. Perhaps it would have been better to clinically remove the fiery elements connected to that certain annoyance, but I cherish these moments as well. I think it is an important part of the process.
I think that if I deny myself the opportunity to get angry with someone I deny myself the opportunity to get angry with a part of myself that needs some readjustment. That's why I want to thank oKa for triggering me into this 'angry mode'. Ever since I experienced this anger with the SSoA (see Mirror Blasters) I welcome the experience with open arms: it means that there is something new about to enter my awareness.
We are all confronted with the more negative aspects of anger: it could develop into (physical) agression if it is left unattended. You have people who get angry all the time at the most unexpected moments. They can instill fear in others. I guess this has lead to a fear of anger in general. Like Mila I tend to think that anger can be a useful defence mechanism and it can be a useful sign of the breakthrough of new ideas. What follows are a few early results of the discussion with oKa:
RESPECT THE REALITY OF SOMEONE ELSE
I have learnt that this respect doesn't completely work during the moments when you get annoyed by someone's reality perspective. In the relativity-of-reality-articles I write about the possibility to become part of a certain reality by accepting the thought-forms that make up that reality. I think that the reason why I don't want to accept a certain reality is because I do not resonate with it. If my emotional body starts yelling and screaming it simply means that I am confronted with a reality perspective that is at odds with mine.
This is a rather complicated issue: do I respect the reality of someone else when it makes my head spin and my emotional body crazy? I think that showing respect of someone else's reality can only occur if you have pinpointed the reasons why you prefer not to accept certain thought-forms of someone else's reality. You recognize the differences and then you are able to gently put that thought-form aside. Respect then translates into: "It is not my perspective, but I am no longer harmed or affected by the dissonance of it to my system, I can keep my distance and allow the other her/his view."
INFRINGING ON MY SYSTEM
As soon as I am able to distinguish between the elements of my own perspective and that of someone else I prefer not to speak about these differences too long. It could get into an argument in which nobody is willing to let go of their own thought-forms. This is just fine: everybody has the right to create his own reality.
In the case of oKa this means that as soon as I have discovered what it was that aroused my emotional body I can learn to let it be. I understand the differences and that's it for me. When I notice that even though I understand the differences in perspective the other keeps on pounding on my door, I prefer to give that person the ascending boot, for it no longer activates any anger and I simply don't like it when someone else wants to mold my reality. This doesn't necessarily mean that all communication must be ended, but it means that I will no longer delve into the same differences again and again.
I have noticed that I start to see differences in perspective between my current position and the one I held only a year ago. I see signs of 'SSOA-brainwashing' more easily now than I was able to see a year or two ago. I was parroting Mila instead of speaking my own truth.
KARMA MAGIC
One of the things that oKa forced me to look into is my changing perspective of karma and the way that it should be dealt with. As you know I have removed my pendulum, I don't do any tarot cards anymore and I have developed sincere doubts as to the necessity of muscle testing and the use of the language of light and the language of One (see Dancing with Symbols).
I prefer to think that both the language of light and the language of One develop from within as a result of clearing more and more distorted thought-forms. I do no longer think that it is the most fruitful and natural way to clear karma by swinging with a thread with some weight beneath is. I think that we have more natural resources to gain understanding of our distorted thought-forms.
Another thing that doesn't resonate with me any longer is the 'mechanical' way of releasing karma. You notice something with your swinging thread and you automatically start the program of forgiving. You could stay indoors all day and release karma with your pendulum this way. Not just karma of your own life, but karma that was incurred hundreds of thousands of years ago. There is something there that doesn't sound right to me.
TIME PERIODS: THE PAST AND PRESENT
Another thing that doesn't feel right with me anymore is the tendency to delve into the past and forgive something that happened back then. Don't get me wrong, I also do this occasionally (see Fear of Losing a Job), but I wonder if that is the best mode. Aren't we fooled into believing that in order to progress, or to ascend, we need to spend our time and energy on the past? (see Cut the Athena Crap)
Couldn't it be that certain thought-forms or reality perspectives are universal, or unrelated to time? Couldn't it be that if you recognize the harmful nature of certain thought-forms that you can learn to deal with it in the present, through your present-day experiences? Perhaps you can ask some piece of advice from your ancestors on how to construct an alternative, but perhaps there is no need to forgive every single distortion that ever walked the face of the Earth.
Like Ken, I prefer to develop the possibility that it isn't really karma that matters that much, but the karma-inducing thought-forms that lie beneath it. If we are able to recognize and transform these underlying thought-forms we might automatically transform all the associated karma.
I wouldn't be surprised if many of our ancestors turned into wizards and sorcerers finding out all kinds of tricks to magically neutralize karma (or find ways to magically dump it somewhere out of sight) and inflate their own personalities by considering them to be the almighty saviors of mankind. I consider the excessive use of the pendulum as a sign of sorcery and also as a sign of lack of faith in your own subtle bodies and their ability to communicate with all aspects of your self. I don't think that ascension implies dependence on a thread and perhaps that was something my ancestors have learnt and don't want to repeat again.
Gibbon
January 2007